It has been a large struggle in life for me as I have to balance out so many things now from studies, projects, my family and managing my social life. It is not a walk in the park process as I am also catering to the evolution on my being. Currently and so suddenly everything is thrown at me I have to juggle the balls all right to this time I will really fall. So far it has been frustrating but thanks to friends I have and my girl friend, I think I manage to keep it up.
Anyway it has been a long week for me getting pass everyday but when I do mention ‘a long week’ but it seems to be like the days fly by even my eyes couldn’t keep up with it. Is it when we are bored and have nothing to do when we see all the details of life passing by that are why we assume the day passes by slowly? And when we are so busy we just don’t notice anything and everything just flies by? I don’t have any theories or conclusions upon this statement I made but it does seem to be that way to me.
This week alone there has been so many up’s and down’s allocated in my life book. First was the bad news about the Business Law exam results. I really thought I could have made it but it seems my work isn’t cut out for being “lawful” enough I presume. Then there is the heat felt upon how much I have to do for my project and I am kind of stuck with its progress. Luckily peer pressure and good friend surrounded me and aided me in this project kok, hong zhen and alw. Great people I tell u. I started this weekend with much intuition to begin my learning curve but it has soon ended because my have didn’t have electricity for the day ( Saturday ) darn! I was doing my just looking through with one a half charge of laptop battery. A suffering time it tell u because it was also very hot in those situations. I might have gotten out of the house to get my laptop power but I can’t because I needed to take care of my grandparents. My aunts are all busy working and stuff so I needed to do the job.
For most of you all taking care might seem like nothing but to take care of a 85 year old 3 time stroke, heart and so on, patient, I can tell u it isn’t easy at all. He would be calling me constantly to aid him at his cause. For that Saturday I sat down in my room fanning him while he was sleeping (the electric was out remember?) . haiz! Stress! Then my grandmother on the other hand always asks me out to buy her stuff like marketing and all and sometimes I’ll be up in the wee hours doing marketing with her. I love them a lot but sometimes it seems too much for a ordinary person for me to take this all in.
All this complaints only have me to blame it on as I am not good enough to cope. Even today no work was done because wave after wave of guest came to my house to visit my grandpa and my aunt’s was out so I had to be the ass sitting there and entertaining them. Plus to that the water to my house was out for about 3 hours. GOSH!!! I haven’t even started with my lack of time to socialize with my most of my good friends like DANI, Euwayne and a few more. I feel bad and sad some of them may think I’m doing all this deliberately but I’m not. Sorry is all I can say. Sorry to my gf also. Haiz!. Sometimes I really hope I had a normal family like living with my parents. But it isn’t going happen. So people, consider yourself lucky everyday because you do not need to go through what I am going through. I know it’s it’s not catastrophically bad but hey I’m stressing out and I do thank god I have a roof to live under.
